[He'll get there. Introspection isn't his strong suit.]
It... is a struggle, yes. Working on a team. Living in this world. Dealing with these missions.
[Another quiet moment, as feelings well up that he attempts to tamp down. To find a way to express it without sounding weak to his own ears.]
When I was a summoner, I dealt with with several existential threats to the Capital. To Japan. They were not easy, but I persevered, right up until I arrived here. When I finally lost.
[Raidou already feels like he's going on too long, at someone who might not even care to hear it. He doesn't want to make excuses for his behavior. But that loss, with all the other losses the Outsiders experienced on top of it, make them all feel like personal failures.]
I'm just... trying to continue persevering. Despite that. I don't think it's working, but I'm not giving up. Not yet.
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It... is a struggle, yes. Working on a team. Living in this world. Dealing with these missions.
[Another quiet moment, as feelings well up that he attempts to tamp down. To find a way to express it without sounding weak to his own ears.]
When I was a summoner, I dealt with with several existential threats to the Capital. To Japan. They were not easy, but I persevered, right up until I arrived here. When I finally lost.
[Raidou already feels like he's going on too long, at someone who might not even care to hear it. He doesn't want to make excuses for his behavior. But that loss, with all the other losses the Outsiders experienced on top of it, make them all feel like personal failures.]
I'm just... trying to continue persevering. Despite that. I don't think it's working, but I'm not giving up. Not yet.